You might remember on Monday I talked about having good and bad news. Yes? Maybe? Hopefully. ;)
Well since my good news story was so long, I postponed my bad news for another day. That day is today.
I may or may not have just taken a deep breath.. Alright. Here we go.
Last month I talked about not getting into my first choice school for this upcoming school year, and how I was waiting to hear back from my second choice school.
Can you tell where this is going?
Yeah. I didn't get into that second choice school. Which happened to be my only second choice. Sso, for the first time in my entire life, I won't be in school this coming fall. It may sound kind of cheesy, but I honestly feel lost about what I'm supposed to do. I mean, since I was 3 or 4 (preschool age), school has been the majority of my identity. Being a student has been the majority of my identity. And after next month it won't be.
I'm also incredibly frustrated because it's now going to take six years (instead of five; I spent three years at my JC) to get a four year degree.
People keep telling me I'm "being led on a different path"and "something better will come along" but I can't help but remain angry. At life, the world.. For all the hard work I've put in, it refuses to cut me a break.
The other thing I'm angry about is the college school system. In high school you're told that you should go to a JC first because you'll have a better chance of getting into a four-year university. Well, I was told wrong. As of next month I'll have an AA in Psychology, which means all my underdivision work for a BA has been done. Which was supposed to be my ticket into a four-year school. But no. So, I spent the last three years of my life because of a decision that was based on incorrect information. Can you imagine how I feel now? Frustrated. Angry. Confused. Hopeless. Especially when you take into account that when I apply this fall again to four-year schools, who's to say I'll even get in, with what happened this year? My transcripts and degree will be exactly the same as my application six months ago. What then?
For now, I'm planning on working full time after I graduate (38 days away! Is this real life?!) to save up some money to move out and find a place of my own, at least until next fall (2014), assuming I'll be leaving for school then. The upside to all this is that without class and five page english papers and 10 minute speeches to do, I'll have so much more time to devote to this blog! Which I am definitely excited about. :)
I cannot even imagine how stress-free my life is going to be after next month without school.
I'm almost happy about this whole thing.